Hello everyone. I am very anxious right now. Really worried. I cant remember if I posted it on this forum or not, but I have a doc appt tomorrow morning with my Ortho. My mom talked to his nurse and she said it sounded like I had Fibro, and that he should be able to dx me, if not he can refer me to someone who can. But, she said he would probably be able to, and if he does, he could give me something to help! Thats very exciting since I have been waiting for 4 years to find out what is wrong with me.
But, I am really nervous about going. I hate going to the doctor because everytime I have ever went they always say they cant help me and send me to another doc who does the same. Needless to say, I ended up with a long list of docs who have done absolutely nothing for me. I am also scared he wont want to dx me. What if he wants to send me to someone else...AGAIN. I cant handle going through that again. I just want him to tell me tomorrow, but I am very scared he wont be able to. I have been waiting for this day for 4 years. I dont want to post-pone it when I am so close.
I probably wont sleep any tonight. And thinking about it in the morning will probably make me sick. I have thought about it most of today. But, yesterday and today have been really good days! I was able to go to school no problem! I am going to try my best to keep my mind off of it. Also, when I go, I am not going to be expecting anything. I have learned that when I go to the doc not to expect anything, that way when they turn me down and cant help me, it doesnt crush me as bad.
Well, I have to start working now to get my mind off of it in time to get some sleep. I will let you guys know how it goes tomorrow. Thanks for letting me vent.
"Sometimes when I say 'Oh Im fine' I want someone to
look me in the eyes and say 'Tell the truth'
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"You asked what was wrong and I smiled and said, 'Nothing' then I turned around and whispered...'Everything'
talk and laugh too loud...its because I am trying to forget that I am sad."
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."
Post Edited (TeNNiSd0C09) : 12/5/2007 7:39:49 PM (GMT-7)