Hello, I am Kitt and I would like to welcome you to Healing Well on behalf of all of the members here in the A & P forum.
I read your post twice. I am sorry that you are feeling so down but please remember it is okay to change your mind. You have given New York your best shot at this time. You are not a failure, your just very unhappy and I would vote for home and be on the next plane, train or automobile on my way to Ohio.
I have changed my mind on jobs more than once. I have been told you should give a job a year to feel comfortable but sometimes you know if the job and you are not a good fit.
Take your time when looking at positions the next time you go job hunting. You do not have to take a position just because it is offered. Make sure you take care of yourself.................perhaps after you get back home you will find your depression will ease. If not try to get some counseling.
Remember nothing stays the same forever. I so agree with you school was fun, but eventually you have to move on.
No more beating yourself up and hey, try talking to the ladies you work with, they may have some good advice. Life experiences are often the best teachers.
I hope you keep posting as we are here for you and want to see you happy.
Again a very warm welcome to you.
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