Am I indanger of myself??

Diseases & Conditions Depression
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 I have severe depression and I am taking 20mg celabex, I also have have panic disorder as well   as Chronic Fatigue and Fibro.
 latley I have be thinking....."You know if I take this bottle of meds how long and will it take me away from all of my pain?" I think to myself that if I were dead I wouldn't be feeling all of this panic and sadnesss and pain. then I think of my 4 boys and wonder if I could do something like that to them..then again I go back to "How long can I go on feeling this way. can I deal with this until I'm 70 yr old (I'm 37)
this disease is killing me slowly, it's taking me away from my children and my husband. I hope i am not scaring anyone, I really think I needed to get this off my chest.
Annie sad
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Annie: Hang in there girl, I too have often felt the same but never did anything b/c I do have a beautiful daughter. Have you sought perfossional help? If not, please try that and we are here to listen to you!

<<<<<<<HUGS>>>>>>>>

                       Johnna
       DX with IBS and Vulvadenyia   
 DH diagnosed at 17. Currently on Prednisolone, Remmicade, Pentasa and Fosomax.
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YES!  You are in danger!

The following link will take you to the second topic of the Depression Forum  "Depression Resources"

In the the second, third and FOURTH post, you will find clickable links.   Please either use one of those links or call your county mental health department or an 800 hot-line from your phonebook.  Don't wait . . . you owe it to yourself to get help with this.

http://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=19&m=104218

 

Please let us know how it goes after you have contacted someone who has experience with this.  None of us are trained to help you.

 

We really do care about you sis!! 

 

Blessings!

In His Grip,
AlwaysRosie          "We can't control the waves, but we can learn to surf!"
Psalms 139
UCTD (Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease), Hashimoto's, Plantar Fasciitis, Inflamatory Arthritis, High BP, GI Inflamation, Diverticuloses
Plaquenil, Methotrexate, Folic Acid, Synthroid, RX Motrin, Lexapro, Amitriptelyne, Salagen, Lotrel (Centrum Silver, B12, B6, Calcium+D,)

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YES!  You are in danger!

The following link will take you to the second topic of the Depression Forum  "Depression Resources"

In the the second, third and FOURTH post, you will find clickable links.   Please either use one of those links or call your county mental health department or an 800 hot-line from your phonebook.  Don't wait . . . you owe it to yourself to get help with this.

http://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=19&m=104218

 

Please let us know how it goes after you have contacted someone who has experience with this.  None of us are trained to help you.

 

We really do care about you sis!! 

 

Blessings!

In His Grip,
AlwaysRosie          "We can't control the waves, but we can learn to surf!"
Psalms 139
UCTD (Undifferentiated Connective Tissue Disease), Hashimoto's, Plantar Fasciitis, Inflamatory Arthritis, High BP, GI Inflamation, Diverticuloses
Plaquenil, Methotrexate, Folic Acid, Synthroid, RX Motrin, Lexapro, Amitriptelyne, Salagen, Lotrel (Centrum Silver, B12, B6, Calcium+D,)

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Annie,
I wasn't going to answer this post, but I thought about it and decided I would but I would say very little. I think a lot of us have had feelings of despair and sadness. That's part of what depression is all about. It is up to us to try very hard to fight those feelings and to come to the place when we say, "Who's going to win here, me or the depression"? Think of your family and your children. All else will follow. I will add you to my prayer list.
 
God bless!
 
"Lefty"

There is no such word as can't. Can't simply means wouln't. Grab as much as life as you can. Future is a long way away for those who don't believe. Don't build a foundation of life on sand. It will take it away with the tide. Love a little more, be unkind a lot less.

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Annie,

Please reach out and talk to someone in your life, a counsellor, healthcare professional, or someone else that you trust, who won't judge you and will help you. If worst comes to worst please call 911.

Life is worth living even with the pain. Your family wants you in their life, pain and all. Be proud of yourself for reaching out. Now reach a little farther and let someone guide you until you don't have these feelings anymore. It's okay to lean on other people in difficult time.

And, keep talking to us.

Coquitlam55 (aka Nicky)
 
"The world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming it." --Helen Keller
I try and remember this each day I have a headache that I'm not sure I can overcome.