New to this site. Have bi-polar and anxiety problems, and today's just a really bad day. I need to feel like there's someone else in te world who understands this.
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Thank you for finally replying. I was getting very upset; it's hard enough feeling like an outsider among people who don't have these problems. I don't know anyone else who has it and my husband tries hard but sometimes it's too much for him. My therapist left the city and didn't think I needed to be referred to someone else, so I have no one to talk to. My family doctor's a drunk quack who is only good for keeping my meds filled, if I call and ask. Sorry, I'm babbling...
welcome to Healingwell. I understand very much what it feels like to suffer from bipolar and anxiety. Dealing with bipolar is by no means easy. I still have a hard time accepting it and I was dx almost 4 years ago. How long have you been dx bipolar?
Laura
"It is not easy to live life sometimes and face the world with a smile when you're crying inside. It takes a lot of courage to reach down inside yourself, hold on to that strength that's still there, and know that tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities. But if you can hold on long enough to see this through, you'll come out a new person - stonger, with more understanding and with new pride in yourself from knowing you made it" Kathy Obara
Hi: I have been diagnosed for about 3 years now. I knew there was something wrongwith me before that but had no idea it was something like this. I just thought I was screwed up, you know? I still have a real hardtime with it. I have a great career, and a great husband, but both have suffered greatly because of my emotional problems as well. As I am self employed but also the major earner in the household, that can be a problem. I take a fairly weak drug called Celexa which is nearly the same as Paxil, which gave me bad bouts of the shakes. I also take Lorazopan. Every day is a fight to cope, and I often think of 'quitting'. I'm scared all the time. My husband doesn't know how to help and though he tries so hard, he usually ends up pickingthe wrong thing to say or do, and that is causing stress. I could go on for hours about this bit it comes down to, I don't know what to say to him, I don't kno wwhat to do and I have no one to help me. I feel like i'm drowning in open air. I don't even know how to really explain this... am I making any sense?
I don't know if you read but there is a book called The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide. It's a pretty good book. There is a chapter in the book with the subject: Coping Effectively in The Family and Work Settings.
"It is not easy to live life sometimes and face the world with a smile when you're crying inside. It takes a lot of courage to reach down inside yourself, hold on to that strength that's still there, and know that tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities. But if you can hold on long enough to see this through, you'll come out a new person - stonger, with more understanding and with new pride in yourself from knowing you made it" Kathy Obara
Help, someone. Please. I'm balling my eyes out and have no idea what triggered this. I would die to go and get totally blasted right now. I used alcohol to get through my late teen and early twenties years, long before I was dx. Haven't been drunk in years- not alcoholic, still drink if I want and can not drink if I want but, today I want to erase the world. I want to be completely oblivious, just have a little time where I know nothing, feel nothing, care about nothing. I'm so sick of this s**t!! I can't even tell my own father I'm bipolar and he is my business partner, too! Let me tell you, THAT is a fun dance!!
Why can't you tell your father about your illness? Do you see a pdoc? sounds like you need a med adjustment. Keep hanging in there. You have more strength then you think you do
Laura
"It is not easy to live life sometimes and face the world with a smile when you're crying inside. It takes a lot of courage to reach down inside yourself, hold on to that strength that's still there, and know that tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities. But if you can hold on long enough to see this through, you'll come out a new person - stonger, with more understanding and with new pride in yourself from knowing you made it" Kathy Obara
it took about 20 years for me to get a correct diagnosis, and that was only because of my insistance. it's very hard, because in the end, people who don't have the illness really have no way of "getting it." you need to find a really good person to talk to . medication is not enough. i know how alone it feels. sometimes i feel as if i couldn't go on if i didn't have someone to talk to. my husband is a really great person, and he tries, but in the end, he doesn't get it. certain life situations cause stress and make it even harder to cope. that's the time when it's most important to have someone good to talk to.
Sorry I had not responded to your post until now. I know what it feels like to be alone in your dx. I am BP II, dx for 2 months now. Trying to find the right med "c***tail" and learning that it will be difficult. Please hang in there. Keep posting here, there are some wonderful people here who will care for your needs and will never judge you. This is the safest place in the universe, so use it!!