Was your doctor able to shed any light on whats going on with you? It sounds miserable.
I just wanted you to know, that while I have no answers, we do care here at healingwell. Sometimes posting helps, just knowing someone else is out there who has or is going through something similar can make you feel less alone.
Here for you
Take Care
Ellie
Good judgement comes from experience and alot of that comes from bad judgement.
Hi Sad and Sassie, I am sorry that you are having a difficult time right now. I was wondering if your physician has said or ever mentioned that you have BPD as a diagnosis? Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder are two totally differant diagnosis. They are not even closely related. For a person to receive a diagosis of BPD they have to have a long history of instabillity. Since you asked I dug out my DSM IV book and have posted the criteria for diagnosis:
A pervasive pattern of instability of interpersonal relationships, self-image, and affects, and marked impulsivity beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
1. frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior.
2. a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
3. identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.
4. impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating). Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior.
5. recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior.
6. affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
7. chronic feelings of emptiness
8. inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)
9. transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms
~elisha