I’ve been down last week or so.
I am a shy, quiet, socially awkward woman.
There was a smear campaign waged against me 6 years ago from former managers that i worked under. They made the post look like i was coming after them as the aggressor which is untrue.
It’s followed me everywhere I go. These strangers know what i look like and my full name.
I’ve had trouble at most jobs since because of it.
No, i have never seen the post personally.
They had access to all my private info so blocking me prior would not be hard.
My situation right now is a younger man i work with pretended to be my friend and said he wanted to go out with me so he could prove that the post was true.
Now most of my coworkers are making fun of me because of life details i told him.
And yes it shouldn’t bother me but ppl come after me all the time even though i do nothing to anybody.
I’m starting to feel hopeless again.
Hey there,
I am sorry for what you are going through. Seems like you posted this before. It must be going on for a long time now.
I don't understand what people get from tormenting other people. I am so sorry.
Did you ever go to any counseling? I think it would really help you to build your confidence.
There are some cruel people in this world. They can sense when somebody is vulnerable. You need to boost your confidence so people will stop bullying you. You have the power to do this. Don't give up but stop letting people manipulate the situation to where you are getting picked on.
I hope that things get better for you.
Hugs, Karen...
Moderator-Depression
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies, diabetes (type 2), breast cancer 2021
I am sorry for what you are going through. Seems like you posted this before. It must be going on for a long time now.
I don't understand what people get from tormenting other people. I am so sorry.
Did you ever go to any counseling? I think it would really help you to build your confidence.
There are some cruel people in this world. They can sense when somebody is vulnerable. You need to boost your confidence so people will stop bullying you. You have the power to do this. Don't give up but stop letting people manipulate the situation to where you are getting picked on.
I hope that things get better for you.
Hugs, Karen...
Moderator-Depression
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies, diabetes (type 2), breast cancer 2021
Yes, this has been going on for the last 6 years.
You say: “I’ve been down last week or so.”
And, “I am a shy, quiet, socially awkward woman.”
And, “There was a smear campaign waged against me 6 years ago from former managers that i worked under. They made the post look like i was coming after them as the aggressor which is untrue.”
“It’s followed me everywhere I go. These strangers know what i look like and my full name.”
“I’ve had trouble at most jobs since because of it.”
“No, i have never seen the post personally.”
“They had access to all my private info so blocking me prior would not be hard.”
“I’m starting to feel hopeless again.”
webmd.com says the causes of such problems can be:
• Too little sleep (how have you been sleeping?)
(I have trouble sleep and my psychiatrist gives me medicine for my bipolar that helds with my depression, my trouble sleeping, and calms me down from my anxiety. To help with sleep, I also take Melatonin sleep aid from the health food store. I start off with about 3 or 4 mg. a night and can increase it if it doesn't hellp me.)
• Stress (are you under stress?)
• Bullying, abuse, or other difficult life experiences
(I'm wondering, were you bullied or abused as a child or as a young person?)
• Low self-esteem. (you say, “I am a shy, quiet, socially awkward woman.”
*Depression. ( you say, “I’ve been down last week or so.” and “I’m starting to feel hopeless again.”)
Have you ever seen a a psychiatrist. for this? I’ve been seeing a psychiatrist for the past 30 years and it has helped a lot. It hellps me function. .
They have meidicnes for anxiety, depression, stress, lack of sleep.
I’ve been to mental health clinic that didn’t charge anything. It s based on scale, based on your income, all the way down to free.
On my compuer, I typed into the search engine: Free mental health clinic (in your home town)
Write down severfal phone numbers.
I would take a pen and notepad to the phone. There can be ads for this and that. Go down to the part where it's data, jot down a few numbers, call and see what they say. Maybe find one near you.
You need to take care of yourself. Others can only do so much.
Have you ever been to a psychiatrist?
And, “I am a shy, quiet, socially awkward woman.”
And, “There was a smear campaign waged against me 6 years ago from former managers that i worked under. They made the post look like i was coming after them as the aggressor which is untrue.”
“It’s followed me everywhere I go. These strangers know what i look like and my full name.”
“I’ve had trouble at most jobs since because of it.”
“No, i have never seen the post personally.”
“They had access to all my private info so blocking me prior would not be hard.”
“I’m starting to feel hopeless again.”
webmd.com says the causes of such problems can be:
• Too little sleep (how have you been sleeping?)
(I have trouble sleep and my psychiatrist gives me medicine for my bipolar that helds with my depression, my trouble sleeping, and calms me down from my anxiety. To help with sleep, I also take Melatonin sleep aid from the health food store. I start off with about 3 or 4 mg. a night and can increase it if it doesn't hellp me.)
• Stress (are you under stress?)
• Bullying, abuse, or other difficult life experiences
(I'm wondering, were you bullied or abused as a child or as a young person?)
• Low self-esteem. (you say, “I am a shy, quiet, socially awkward woman.”
*Depression. ( you say, “I’ve been down last week or so.” and “I’m starting to feel hopeless again.”)
Have you ever seen a a psychiatrist. for this? I’ve been seeing a psychiatrist for the past 30 years and it has helped a lot. It hellps me function. .
They have meidicnes for anxiety, depression, stress, lack of sleep.
I’ve been to mental health clinic that didn’t charge anything. It s based on scale, based on your income, all the way down to free.
On my compuer, I typed into the search engine: Free mental health clinic (in your home town)
Write down severfal phone numbers.
I would take a pen and notepad to the phone. There can be ads for this and that. Go down to the part where it's data, jot down a few numbers, call and see what they say. Maybe find one near you.
You need to take care of yourself. Others can only do so much.
Have you ever been to a psychiatrist?
Hi,
I haven’t been to a shrink for over a decade.
The last psychologist that i went to fired me because I didn’t want to come every week. I wanted to come biweekly. I was only making $15 an hour and my copay per visit was $30.
I couldn’t afford it. He told me that it’s not in a psychologist’s best interest for their patients to get better. And he called his patients his bread and butter.
After that, I never thought to go to a shrink because if all the ones that I saw, i never felt better. I had one that gave me crap for not wearing makeup which is stupid because I had way worse problems than a plain jane face.
I do have problems sleeping. I can’t sleep and stay up all night and fall asleep for like 2 hours in the morning.
I’ve struggled with depression since age 12. I had adolescent onset.
I’m on 2 antidepressants and 1 anti anxiety drug.
I have no privacy anymore because of the post.
It’s followed me for 6 years.
And yes, I have had a history of being bullied in the past.
There’s a man I work with who is playing a joke on me. He flip flopped and said he actually likes me. Usually guys play this joke at a distance but this guy went all in and was all over me. Then he started telling people that he was trying to prove the post correct. Now he’s saying he likes me again and he doesn’t care.
Usually guys play this joke and never try to talk to me. That’s their thing to do to a girl that they think doesn’t know anything about guys.
I let things get to me. I don’t know how to filter the BS out and ignore the a-holes.
I have AdHd and I hear everything and get easily distracted by background noise.
Sometimes I wish i was deaf.
I haven’t been to a shrink for over a decade.
The last psychologist that i went to fired me because I didn’t want to come every week. I wanted to come biweekly. I was only making $15 an hour and my copay per visit was $30.
I couldn’t afford it. He told me that it’s not in a psychologist’s best interest for their patients to get better. And he called his patients his bread and butter.
After that, I never thought to go to a shrink because if all the ones that I saw, i never felt better. I had one that gave me crap for not wearing makeup which is stupid because I had way worse problems than a plain jane face.
I do have problems sleeping. I can’t sleep and stay up all night and fall asleep for like 2 hours in the morning.
I’ve struggled with depression since age 12. I had adolescent onset.
I’m on 2 antidepressants and 1 anti anxiety drug.
I have no privacy anymore because of the post.
It’s followed me for 6 years.
And yes, I have had a history of being bullied in the past.
There’s a man I work with who is playing a joke on me. He flip flopped and said he actually likes me. Usually guys play this joke at a distance but this guy went all in and was all over me. Then he started telling people that he was trying to prove the post correct. Now he’s saying he likes me again and he doesn’t care.
Usually guys play this joke and never try to talk to me. That’s their thing to do to a girl that they think doesn’t know anything about guys.
I let things get to me. I don’t know how to filter the BS out and ignore the a-holes.
I have AdHd and I hear everything and get easily distracted by background noise.
Sometimes I wish i was deaf.
You say you don’t want to see a psychiatrist.
But you list your problems as:
“I do have problems sleeping. I can’t sleep and stay up all night and fall asleep for like 2 hours in the morning.
“I’ve struggled with depression since age 12. I had adolescent onset.
"I’m on 2 antidepressants and 1 anti anxiety drug.”
“I have AdHd….”
And in your previous post you sad, “I’ve been down last week or so” and ““I’m starting to feel hopeless again.”
In your latest post you also said, “I haven’t been to a shrink for over a decade.”
You need to know that help is available and it doesn’t cost anything at these clinics listed on the search engine under “mental health” or “mental health clinics” in your hometown.
Again, you said you had AdHd about which mayoclinic.org says:
“Adult attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) is a mental health disorder that includes a combination of persistent problems, such as difficulty paying attention, hyperactivity and impulsive behavior. Adult ADHD can lead to unstable relationships, poor work or school performance, low self-esteem, and other problems.”
I would think there are medications for that and for sleep and depression you’ve said you had experienced. I have, too, but I go to a psy. and take medicines for that, for my bipolar.
All anyone can do is encourage you to see someone about these difficulties. Are you in an isolated situation or do you have contacts?
It is tough to be both the patient and the doctor who might say there are medicines that can help without someone to encourage you. I know because I’’ve been isolated and couldn't get myself out of that.
If you are by yourself I think you need to make some phone calls to a mental health clinic and let them evaluate your overall situation.
You are acknowledging your problem but you are refusing assistance.
You have difficulties that can be corrected if you will simply make a phone call. They will do the rest. For free.
Right now, you are in a situation where you can improve. Keep putting it off and your condition could change. I would take advantage of what you have going for you now.
You are bullying yourself.
But you list your problems as:
“I do have problems sleeping. I can’t sleep and stay up all night and fall asleep for like 2 hours in the morning.
“I’ve struggled with depression since age 12. I had adolescent onset.
"I’m on 2 antidepressants and 1 anti anxiety drug.”
“I have AdHd….”
And in your previous post you sad, “I’ve been down last week or so” and ““I’m starting to feel hopeless again.”
In your latest post you also said, “I haven’t been to a shrink for over a decade.”
You need to know that help is available and it doesn’t cost anything at these clinics listed on the search engine under “mental health” or “mental health clinics” in your hometown.
Again, you said you had AdHd about which mayoclinic.org says:
“Adult attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) is a mental health disorder that includes a combination of persistent problems, such as difficulty paying attention, hyperactivity and impulsive behavior. Adult ADHD can lead to unstable relationships, poor work or school performance, low self-esteem, and other problems.”
I would think there are medications for that and for sleep and depression you’ve said you had experienced. I have, too, but I go to a psy. and take medicines for that, for my bipolar.
All anyone can do is encourage you to see someone about these difficulties. Are you in an isolated situation or do you have contacts?
It is tough to be both the patient and the doctor who might say there are medicines that can help without someone to encourage you. I know because I’’ve been isolated and couldn't get myself out of that.
If you are by yourself I think you need to make some phone calls to a mental health clinic and let them evaluate your overall situation.
You are acknowledging your problem but you are refusing assistance.
You have difficulties that can be corrected if you will simply make a phone call. They will do the rest. For free.
Right now, you are in a situation where you can improve. Keep putting it off and your condition could change. I would take advantage of what you have going for you now.
You are bullying yourself.