I made the appointment probably a month ago when things were really bad and I was feeling so agitated I was miserable. Of course I'm feeling alot better now that the appt. is at hand.
I know I'm hypo at the very least. Not sleeping, restless, cleaning like a demon, (I kinda hate to put an end to that) and spending way too much money. Mostly on cleaning supplies.
I spent the day Saturday scrubbing walls and cleaning my laundry room. (Just to put it in perspective my laundry room is worse than alot of garages, we have brown recluse spiders down there and I clean it only when I absolutely must, or when hypo lol) I've scrubbed floors, carpets, cleaned closets' etc. Apparently with all this unseasonably warm weather something in my head thinks its spring. This is normal spring behavior for me.
Mainly I'm just nervous about the appt. I absolutely HATE going on new meds. I know I'm not getting my Abilify back because it doesn't come in a generic. Now I get to experiment again. YUCK! Don't see much choice though, I know I'll disolve into miserable agitation and irritability within a few weeks. Thats how it always goes. It seems like the older I get the more pronounced the swings become. I used to be able to get by without meds. Not so sure thats an option anymore. Last year was a mess. Thank goodness I get few depressions. I can only think or 3 or 4 major episodes.
Anyway, wish me luck
I hope I don't need it though
Ellie
Good judgement comes from experience and alot of that comes from bad judgement.
Hey Ellie - I'm glad to hear that you have an appointment, and I know that it will be tough for you. Just remember that its important to take care of yourself and this is just a part of the process.
Best of luck and hope that they'll come up with some good ideas,
omg, I got my Abilify back!!!!! The ins co. told me on the phone when I first got it, that medicaid would not pay for a non generic drug. But my medicaid switched to MC+. A medicaid plan carried by a private ins. co. (Blue Cross and Blue shield) and it turns out they will pay for it if it doesn't come in a generic. I can't request a name brand drug if there is an available generic but if there is no option and I was already on the drug, I don't have to switch. I am very very happy I don't have to go on something new. Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Good judgement comes from experience and alot of that comes from bad judgement.
Ellie, I am so happy that you were able to go back on a medication that you trust and knows works for you. That is great! Missouri Medicaid went through a lot of changes as of this past September and people were shifted to different programs. As you said. So it seems that for once at least the system has worked. Way to go......
Thanks Elisha Yes, getting medicaid in Mo is challenging to say the least. The cutoffs for adult qualification are ridiculous. I just barely made it under the wire. The idea that I could pay for a Dr. visit with my income, hah! Oh well, as you said, for once the system worked. I'll just be grateful and keep my mouth shut. At least until the next election, lol. EllieGood judgement comes from experience and alot of that comes from bad judgement.