Sometimes I feel like I've been depressed for so long that I've actually forgotten how to be happy. It's either that or I won't let myself feel happiness for fear of something bad happening to destroy the feeling. Any thoughts on this?
Jon
"The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life, and you must accept regret." -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-81), Swiss philosopher, poet
Hi Jon, I can relate to what you are saying. For me though its not that I forgot, its just that its easier to not try to be happy. You know its like when you are up, the only place to go is back down so I subconciously don't want to give myself the opportunity to let myself down. If that makes any sense. It probably sounds like I'm just rambling. Anyways, I do know how you feel. (((Hugs))) to you :)
Des (dbab)
IBS, Diverticulosis, GERD, Disc Degeneration
"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it" - Mary Engelbreit
I know exactly how you feel. We go on day after day and none of them seem any different then the one before. It's like being in a maze. You can't seem to find your way out so you just give up and stay stagnant. I don't work, I can't drive because I have seizures so I am home day after day, week after week only hoping to get for a doctor appt. Sad but true and I am so used to it right now, I don't know anything different. This is going to sound strange, but when my husband is home on the weekends, I feel like he is infringing on my territory. Weird, huh? I have been like this for so long that I can't handle change. Go figure but I know where you are coming from.
"Lefty"
There is no such word as can't. Can't simply means wouln't. Grab as much as life as you can. Future is a long way away for those who don't believe. Don't build a foundation of life on sand. It will take it away with the tide. Love a little more, be unkind a lot less.
I can say that I have been there. You know my family problems and the health issues I am facing now but I can honestly say that I am feeling a peace that hsn't been there for many years. Keep searching, it is out there waiting for you.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.
Hi Jon. I can't remember if you are taking anti-depressants or not. These help me alot as my personality is pessimistic to begin with and I really envy happy go lucky people. Apparently, it can be learned and I'm trying.
I know you have health issues and dealing with that alone is enough to depress anybody. I was tested for crohn's as I show alot of the symptoms and they can't find the cause so I know hopelessness too well. On the days (weeks) that I have pain I tend to shut myself up alone and go into a downward spiral thinking this is how it's going to be forever.
Some tips I need to try are:
1) volunteering (supposed to feel better when helping others)
2) making a point of planning something each and every day (give you something to look forward to)
3) acting happy and smiling (apparently the body is supposed to follow...lol)
4) journal writing (getting your feelings out helps)
5) talking/crying with someone you love/trust
6) physical exercise (fresh air/endorphins...)
I pray happiness finds its way into your life each and every day Jon and that you recognize it and feel better that you ever have.
Thanks for all the responses. Sorry it has been so long since I posted over here. I'm currently off all anti-ds due to some severe side-effects. After I'm through the rough spot at work, my pcp wants to try Effexor and Remeron. He feels I may be suffering from anxiety more than depression. I just don't know.
Lately my depression has turned to frustration and anger--I really don't like the direction this is leading me in. I guess it is time I started to lead myself in a different direction. Life is just so hard at times...
Take care everyone,
Jon
"The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life, and you must accept regret." -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-81), Swiss philosopher, poet
Hi again Jon. Glad to hear your dr. is listening to you and takes you seriously. Give the new meds a try when you can. Maybe they will be "the ones" that help. Hope so.
I do know that alot of males turn angry when depressed as it's more acceptable than crying all the time.
Remember Jon, one foot in front of the other, one day at a time. Happiness will be yours again. Hang in there Take care, Softy
I know exactly how you feel, as I am there right now, I too think I have forgotten how to be happy and how it feels, I also often wonder if I ever was happy, or have I always been this way. It hurts when my boyfriend says to me that I am like this all the time, as he must just see me as a right miserable cow. But if you need a friend or a chat, then I am about, I have just joined todday and am looking for some friends and people who understand me insted of looking at me like I am some sort of nut,
take care
Hugs
Pix xx
of all the things I have lost I miss my mind the most!
I dont know what to say, except if they think that anxiety is bad, they better get you on some meds. Yikes ! I hear ya, and def feel the same way !! But without meds, I know I couldn't function at all. This depression is such a vicous cycle ! I wish there was a miracle cure ! GGRRR I get so angry and fustrated too ! I just wish I could learn to let things out more. I know it would help. My last phyc kept saying,... ooohhh i dont blame you for feeling like this... Hello? Did she think that was soppossed to help me? duh. I can't even find one that can help. Now that is pretty bad ! lolRemicadex6weeks, 6-mp, b-12once x month, lamotil, bentyl, aciphex,Lexapro, And Trazadone to sleep.
Hey Pixie, Like you r saying at the bottom ! OHHH ... I miss mine too !Remicadex6weeks, 6-mp, b-12once x month, lamotil, bentyl, aciphex,Lexapro, And Trazadone to sleep.
Yes, I tried Lexapro. It really didn't have any effect on me at all. My doc appt is on Friday. I intend on asking about seeing a therapist as well as trying new meds. Time will tell....
Jon
"The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life, and you must accept regret." -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-81), Swiss philosopher, poet
Glade to see you have came back to us.I shar in your frustration as well I feel as tho I have become a hermit.It has been so long since I have really been around other people.
My niece called me over the week-end and ask if I could to her first Homegame she is in the run for queen she is in third grade I told her that I would come if permitted and what I mean by that is I feel like making that hour long trip.
I will say that I'am having alot of an anxiety but there comes a point that I have got to try and venture back out in the word some what.I moved back home a year ago the 15th of this month so I have never been able to go to functions and do thing's with them so I have lost a lot of time with them (Ihave six niecses)I'am all so due to go with anoher niece to a hay ride and pumkin patch next thursday.
I bothe sever depression and anxiety it has taken me alot of time and meds to get me to the point that I'am willing to try and get out more.
I see a theraphist twice amonth and see my Phyacyratist every three month's because he is the one that presribe's my meds.I do hope that you get to feeling better.Please let us know how you are doing.Thanks
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.
Doc put me on Remeron yesterday, as well as Celebrex for the joint pain. I slept for 18 hours off and on. Will let you know how this progresses. Thanks for all your thoughts everyone. I love you guys....
Jon
"The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life, and you must accept regret." -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-81), Swiss philosopher, poet
HI, Jon,
