Hey I was jst wondering what this site was all about. So this is how you post.... lol
Okay, right now (I guess this is the kind of thing we type..) I feel MAD! Yup.... believe it or not, I'm so ticked @ my dad and mom but mostly my dad right now: Okay, so I have allergies, so I take pills, and they tend to put me to sleep after so long, so I fell asleep around 5-5:30 ish, and my dad woke me up at 9-9:30ish and told me to eat something for 'dinner', uhhh.... FYI, i tend not to eat ..... anyway, I was SO mad @ him for waking me up, that I refused to eat, so he said he'd take me to the hospital and have them put tubes in me and feed me that way if I didn't eat. OMGosh I'm so MAD!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, the point of me telling you this, I need advice on how to see myself better. Like, I never, like, NEVER thought I would ever really REALLY like, SEE myself look ... fat in the mirror. Like, I can't explain it, I SEE it. I need some tips. I'm going to see a theripist in a few weeks for my self injury issues, but thats a whole 'nother story......
Hi blood vs tears, Welcome to healing well forum. The forum is meant as a support system, place for people to ask questions and exchange personal knowledge regarding illnesses. You are more then welcome to ask whatever you like on here and we can try to help in any way possible.
I tend to get cranky when I get woken up from sleeping also so I can understand to a point. I am assuming that your in your teens? If I am wrong please do correct me. I can also understand when you say that you look in fat in the mirror. I have struggled with this for years I am 32 and weigh 120 pounds. I look in the mirror and see someone who is easily 220. I have run the gamit of eating disorders and trying to be perfect all in the process of trying to torcher myself and others. Also, at the time as stupid as it sounds now it felt like the only control I had over my life, what kind of pain I could inflict upon my body. Once you start down this path you can pretty well bet that it will be with you forever and will be something you think about all the time. Thearpy is an excellent idea, it sounds as if your dad is looking out for health. You HAVE to eat to stay alive. This was a hard lession for me to learn. Plus if your taking medication you really should not be taking it on an empty stomach.
I went thru this for yrs as well would go days w/o eating until I realized that I was slowly killing myself....Els is right you have to eat to stay alive and especially taking meds.......I am so glad you are seeing a therapist ,be honest and I mean totally or the whole session will be useless.......I hope you are able to see the beauty of you when you look in that mirror not the "ugly and fat" that isnt really there it is hard but take baby steps .Your Dad is worried about you and you are really lucky that he is showing you he loves you so much .I would do exactly what he said he would If you were mine ........Live hun and enjoy your life.......It is a beautiful thing really .........keep us posted please on how you are doing......God Bless...Lyn
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