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Diseases & Conditions Bipolar Disorder
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Dr called this afternoon to tell me all was well.  Said she hadn't wanted to frighten me last week but she wanted to rule out cancer as well since I had smoked so long.  Turns out just the pleurisy and some degeneration in my spine.  Knew that was there just not so high.  I've had a couple of surgerys.
Also the neck pain in a harmless (tell that to my neck) side effect that just must be lived through and I should break the 5mg tabs in half for awhile.  Of course I"m already doing that.  Not such a bad day after all.
Take care all
Ellie
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Good deal, Ellie!  See no cancer.  Of course, with a smoking history there is always a bigger chance.   I smoked for 22 years, finally successfully quit 3 years ago.  I am very scared of something happeneing to me, too.   How ******* stupid!  What an idiot!  All so I could smell bad.  You did quit didn't you? 

 

 

Variety is the spice of life, BP is the key

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you bet. My ex- is a two pack a day asthmatic smoker with early emphesma (sp). If he goes, my daughter has noone but me. I decided I have no right to endanger my life when I have children. They deserve to have a healthy mother to take care of them. I know, that could apply to bp as well, shannon. I can hear you thinking it. I tried smoking for about a week when the bp first started flaring bad in the spring but it didn't help and it felt like inhaling fire. Plus my 13 year old daughter refused to speak to me until I quit.
Now if I can get past this ungodly neck pain I'll be great. BP really IS a pain in the neck.
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LOL, good one Ellie!  I have heard that BPs usually have neck problems from all the years of mania tensing the neck and causing spasm.  My entire neck is arthritic and stays in constant spasm, even massage therapists can't get them out.  I'm really looking forward to MORE neck pain, haha.

I am glad you quit, it's awful. 

Variety is the spice of life, BP is the key

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My neck pain has already resolved itself so if it does happen to you it's short lived. My irritability is easing as well. Its only been a few days and I'm already feeling free of alot of the side effects. I've got to up the dose this weekend so they might come back but oh well.
Now I"m going to complain, so if you're in a bad place you might not want to read further.
My wonderful husband didn't ask how my dr appt went last friday I finally just told him. He knew I was panicing all weekend over those x-rays, I even mentioned it to him before he went to work yesterday. Did he ask? No. Isn't that true love for you. I didn't tell him either. He obviously doesn't care one way or the other. He spent five hours on the comp playing EQ. Now that was important. I doubt very much he'll remember our anniversary this weekend either and you can bet I won't.
He's making noises about the meds again too. Making comments about how they make me irritable. Ok thats true until I adjust. Hes insisting I stay that way the entire time I'm on them and thats just a boldfaced lie. I calmed significantly last time within two weeks. He just doesn't want to fork out the cash. If he really feels like he can't handle this, he can find the door and I'll do it alone. I don't need any man to be complete. Actually I kinda like it when Its just me and the kids. I get lonely, but I'm lonely now. Theres nothing worse than being with someone who doesn't know you're alive. It's all about the games. I think the only reason he came back is because his sister threw him out. This was just convenient.
Ok, I'm done whining now. I hope you're feeling better today.
Ellie
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See Ellie, I told you!!! LOL No excuses girlfriend!!! Sometimes men do that don't ask and it will go away thing. Don't worry it doesn't mean he doesn't care, honest, it means he's a man!!! As far as the meds go, Ellie, you know you need them, so just let him b**** and smile sweetly at him, and do what you need to do. Simple, he'll get over it or he won't but you'll be healthy. Maybe I'm more selfish than you, but I refuse to be a basket case for anyone, anyone. Anyway, I'm proud of you.

Sandra

BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

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I'm so sorry he's like that.  He is a jerk of the highest caliber.   Yeah, I know what you mean about being lonely IN  a relationship.  I had one like that when I was early 20's, alcoholic, abusive mentally, he actually did call me a manic depressive and that was before I got formally diagnosed, lol.  I was miserable it was the only time I actually came within a hair of slitting my wrists.  I was all ready in the tub, but I just couldn't do it.  The next day is when I went, got dxd and started Lithium, a week later I moved out.  I was soooooo much happier to be rid of that burden. 

I am sooo happy and proud that you are determined this time and aren't going to let him stop you from getting well.  You know, because of you and Sandy that's why I am going to brave the side effects of Abilify and really give it a chance. 

Like a fool I took it last night like my pdoc said to , but I cut my dose of Seroquel in half because I had been waking up foggy and blah.  Well, as you can rpobably guess, I prett much was up the entire night.  But mind is oh so busy, and body very tired.  So, it's a good thing I did all the housework and laundry yesterdy so I can relax today and will have time to paint (art).  I really feel like it today.

Variety is the spice of life, BP is the key

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Whats your starting dosage? I'm breaking my 5mgs in half for the first week and my dr. said thats okay. The stuff makes me really tired in the beginning so I take it at night but by next week when I go back up to 5 I'll have to take it in the morning because it wires me a little. When I get back up to ten I'll be hyper in the mornings after I take it but even out by afternoon. At least thats how it worked last time. And yea!!! my appetite is disappearing again. I felt obligated to finish off that pie last night, (my secret weakness ahhhh, pie!) but now that its gone I have no desire to eat at all. I have a closet full of 3's and 5's I havent worn in nearly 3 years. It would be nice to wear something other than my daughters cast offs. That might be enough to keep me on the meds right there. lol
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lol, I am looking forward to that!  Funny, I hardly eat in the day, I actually forgt until blood sugar drops, THEN I remember!  Awful!  At night is my problem, because dinner is always so tasty, lol.

I am starting on the 5mg.  So far, no it doenst make me tired obviously!  I also took it this a.m I am going to be taking it in the a.m., so I ddint want to wait until tomorrow.

Variety is the spice of life, BP is the key

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I think you'll be really pleased with this med. I know I was until the ugly part. I'll get past that this time. I'm motivated. I guess it might react differently with you with your other meds.
I really didn't sleep much last night either. NOt due to meds though. My thirteen yr old woke me a little after four , screaming her brains out because there was a wolf spider iln her room and it ran across her foot. I almost had a stroke. She woke up the whole house. Thats the fourth wolfie this year and they only get more frequent (and bigger) later in the fall. We also have a serious problem with brown recluse spiders. I've set out probably thirty glue traps and have caught quite a few of the little monsters. Looks like its going to be an active spider season this year. Its been really wet in this part of MO this last month and I think that makes them worse.
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HAs anyone read the Effexor/nervousness post by Wotan? Theres a reply there about just using vitamins (I thought selenium was toxic in large doses) to control BP. I try to keep an open mind about things but thats a little scary to suggest someone go off all their meds and take a couple of vitamins.
Is that maybe just an ad or something?