Over the past few days I have become increasingly unstable and depressed. I've long wondered if I had something wrong with me where anxiety was concerned and it has shown up recently in the form of panic attacks and social anxiety. It is getting ridiculous to deal with the panic attacks and the depression. I have been trying to find work and ended up having to quit a job over this. I have never had such a problem being around people and this anxiety stuff really scares me, literally. Even doing simple things sometimes seems overwhelming. My girlfriend does not understand or maybe it is she does understand and feels helpless. Either way I know I am burdening her down. I think she thinks I am just lazy at the heart. She was getting panic attacks too about
a year ago, but I haven't heard anything about
it much since then so I wonder if it goes away. Will this go away? I know the depression is here to stay and at least I know how I can start meds on that again, but I am scared that this anxiety won't go away. This crap is frightening me into the house, if that makes anysense, and I feel pushed into a corner.
As much as I do not want to use medication again, I will talk to my doctor about
going back on Lexapro. It worked the best of what I've tried. The thing that gets me in this is that I feel I really can't win. I felt on meds that I was a different person, but when I go off them for a while to try to feel who I am again, I fall apart. I wish there was some other solution then medication, but I think I should get back on it again.
Until I see my doctor I ask this friends:
How do you deal with life when things get like this? What do you do? Is there a natural remedy that anyone has found that works good? How do you deal with the shaking-frightened feeling toward life?
Post Edited (MindsEyeOpen) : 11/8/2005 9:17:00 AM (GMT-7)
<Is there a natural remedy that anyone has found that works good?>
Well what I try to do is have at least a couple of hours of pampering time each day.. aromatherapy works as part of it, I use scented candles so you can have your chosen scent and the comfort of a flickering candle flame to help you chill out. And at the same time, listen to some of your favourite music or readings/dramatizations of your favourite stories or maybe read some of them whilst listening to the music. This will remind you once you get into the habit of doing this regularly, that there are really good things in life as well as the things that get you down, and that you can enjoy them whenever you want to.
Have a tray beside you with your favourite drink and food on it to snack if you wish. Don't feel guilty about
any of this! Why should it only be children who get rewards?
'Consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds' - Emerson
and glad to be able to help. Its just as well that hopefully you can start on these suggestions now and keep your cool like 
so that when the rapidly approaching Christmas arrives with its artificial air of 'happiness but only if you spend money' and 'if you don't buy for people you are nothing' and 'smile smile smile' phoney friendliness you won't feel worse. 
and don't listen to 
planting negative thoughts in your mind he is just a 
with a bad attitude due to really bad toothache 
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