gretchen2878,
its ok its propably not as really bad as you think. if your deppresed you tend to focus on the sad things or negative feelings and forget the wonderfull feelings and memories. million-dollar-baby is not really a sad movie, i think if you remember well she was always smiling when she saw clint in the end and thats the way she wanted it :)
if your deppresion is sort of stoping you from functioning and living normally think about seeing a doctor to help it's not a big deal don't worry too much just do it !! maybe it will make your life better :)
To be or not to Be
Sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. I am grateful you made the effort to reach out to us in your time of need. It is very hard for me to do that when I feel like I am in the middle of a storm especially when I feel like I have lost sight of the lighthouse needed to guide me safely through it. Reaching out and asking for some help/support is the first step in I need to let the light penetrate the darkness that is surrounding me. Hang in there, and please don't feel like you are complaining. Each of us needs the strength of others at different times in our lives.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.