I am actually confused today. I feel like noone likes me in this group
and that noone cares. Why you ask?
I am feeling like I work so hard to be a part of this group, to help
support, and share emotions, let alone make Videos on our Bipolar
disease and not anyone in this group is really interested in what I
say or do. Why you ask?
Here I create my own youtube channel to share with the bipolar world,
in the hopes that other bipolar people will comment on my videos. Do
they? No. I just am so frustrated, because I want to know what people
think of my work. Am I appreciated? Right now this is how I
feel......not at home does anyone care, not outside of home does any
care, and nor on the internet or in the support groups does anyone
care. I feel Alone, Lost, and like there is really no reason to be on
this planet. So what am I here for? To do the laundry, to cook, to
babysit, to clean house, to kiss ass, to please everyone, and me I get
nothing?
If you really care ..... this is how I feel:
http://www.onetruemedia.com/shared?p=a1a90639893bc5f94ae191&skin_id=701
Why are people so afaid to comment on this???? Did I do all this for
Nothing?
Angela,
I think you will find that the group has been VEEEEEEERY slow lately. We're getting a post, maybe two a day. That's the case all the way across HealingWell. It's not that no one is interested in your work, but rather that we have had only a few visitors and very few posts by regulars in the last week and a half. Even I have been only "checking in" this week. The reason should be obvious.
I think, rather than lashing out, you could have simply said that you were hoping for more feedback on your videos. That would have saved you the trouble of getting frustrated, and possibly alienating people by being aggressive.
I thought your video was very well done, but too sad for me to watch all the way through. I trigger depressive very easily and I associate the first song with the movie Girl, Interrupted, which was brutally triggering for me. Keep up the good work, though. I think anything which spreads bipolar awareness is helpful.
Best,
Serafena
Serafena
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER
I think you will find that the group has been VEEEEEEERY slow lately. We're getting a post, maybe two a day. That's the case all the way across HealingWell. It's not that no one is interested in your work, but rather that we have had only a few visitors and very few posts by regulars in the last week and a half. Even I have been only "checking in" this week. The reason should be obvious.
I think, rather than lashing out, you could have simply said that you were hoping for more feedback on your videos. That would have saved you the trouble of getting frustrated, and possibly alienating people by being aggressive.
I thought your video was very well done, but too sad for me to watch all the way through. I trigger depressive very easily and I associate the first song with the movie Girl, Interrupted, which was brutally triggering for me. Keep up the good work, though. I think anything which spreads bipolar awareness is helpful.
Best,
Serafena
Serafena
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER
Angela...this is not a greatly traveled site. If what you are looking for is video critique, then maybe you should find a website that specializes in that.
Everyone here suffers in a different way, many people trigger into depression very easily, and avoid watching things like that. You can definitely not take it personally that not many have seen it yet. And also a lot of people may have seen it, but just are not the commenting type.
I also doubt you will get much more feedback after an outburst like that.
Isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet? - L. M. Montgomery
Everyone here suffers in a different way, many people trigger into depression very easily, and avoid watching things like that. You can definitely not take it personally that not many have seen it yet. And also a lot of people may have seen it, but just are not the commenting type.
I also doubt you will get much more feedback after an outburst like that.
Isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet? - L. M. Montgomery
Yeah, yesterday I was in a bad cycle, and I should have stopped for a minute and not been so irrational when I posted about my video.
I want to apologize to everyone. I didn't mean to sound so aggressive, nor should I have lashed out.
Angela
I want to apologize to everyone. I didn't mean to sound so aggressive, nor should I have lashed out.
Angela
It's all okay.
Hope you're feeling better today!
Be well,
serafena
Serafena
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER
Hope you're feeling better today!
Be well,
serafena
Serafena
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER
((Hugs))
I'm very irritable too so I totally understand!
It's good that you can apologize! Pat yourself on the back for that!!! Seriously!!!
I'm too stubborn to do that right now!
I'm very irritable too so I totally understand!
It's good that you can apologize! Pat yourself on the back for that!!! Seriously!!!
I'm too stubborn to do that right now!
Thank you, Stormienight,
Be well,
serafena
Serafena
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER
Be well,
serafena
Serafena
Co-Moderator, Bipolar and Depression Forums
Bipolar II
"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER
Hi Angela,
I saw your video and it is my life. I thought it was beautifully done and very amazing.
Right now I am feeling scared and alone but glad to be understood.
It took guts to make that video. Kudos.
Be well
Shar
I am a Certified Doxie Lover(Weinerdogs)
I am a Certified Doxie Lover(Weinerdogs)
Hi Angela,
I am also bipolar and I watched your video and you did a great job at showing the feelings that I have on alot of days! Thank you for letting me know that someone understands what I go threw and have the feelings that I have! I look forward to getting to know you better and seeing more of your work! It's amazing and so are you! Thank you so much! Ruth
I am also bipolar and I watched your video and you did a great job at showing the feelings that I have on alot of days! Thank you for letting me know that someone understands what I go threw and have the feelings that I have! I look forward to getting to know you better and seeing more of your work! It's amazing and so are you! Thank you so much! Ruth
angela, i saw your video and it was great. tried to respond on utube but got all flustered when they asked for the user name and password. drives me nuts.
also if you notice on the responding thing even on the forum it is maybe a 10% of the people that read that comment back.
look at this post. 174 people read ...8 ,,,now 9 responded. no big deal.. the main thing is that you put a great video together and I hope a lot of eople get to see it .. especially people like me that have been in denial for 35 yrs.
I think it is where the other illness start because being depressed reaks havoc on your immune system and the whole herriditary thing is true. then your parent's dusguise it with drinking or stuff like that and you never know if you are up late or out early. so everything that can be done to show us the real picture is great. your video is my life and it finally showed it to me ...so crystal. thank you
bucci
hep c , lyme
Dad has lyme
also if you notice on the responding thing even on the forum it is maybe a 10% of the people that read that comment back.
look at this post. 174 people read ...8 ,,,now 9 responded. no big deal.. the main thing is that you put a great video together and I hope a lot of eople get to see it .. especially people like me that have been in denial for 35 yrs.
I think it is where the other illness start because being depressed reaks havoc on your immune system and the whole herriditary thing is true. then your parent's dusguise it with drinking or stuff like that and you never know if you are up late or out early. so everything that can be done to show us the real picture is great. your video is my life and it finally showed it to me ...so crystal. thank you
bucci
hep c , lyme
Dad has lyme
I am so please with everyone. I have been getting a lot of Great feedback, and knowing my Video touches my Bipolar friends in this community, has made me feel good about something I have done for once!