Hi Everyone,
I have psychologist appointments every thursday. I am having trouble talking about my childhood etc and although the sessions are helping Ive not been able to go into any detail.
My psychologist told me to buy a note book and try to write things down and it would help. My first thought was...what am I going to write about and how will it help me?
Anyway...one days I was in the garden (sunbathing!) and I thought Id get my notebook and gove it a go. I was so suprised that once I put pen to paper I couldnt stop writing. I didnt really even need to think about what to write, it just came out and it was so theraputic.
I'd recommend anyone giving it a try. Its starting to help me.
Take care all
Victoria
cherish all your happy moments....they make a fine cushion for old age
cherish all your happy moments....they make a fine cushion for old age
I started a blog, and that helps. My friends don't know about it, so it is kind of private. At the same time, it really helps me crystalize some thoughts and feelings, without going overboard.
Hi, glad writing things down has helped you hun, it helps me too. Just to get things out what we have had bottled up for so long is a great thing to do.
Wishing you well with your recovery xxxx
Take care
Chuckle
xxxx
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That's great Victoria, I have been seeing my counselor for a year now and this past week was the first time I was able to tell him details of my abuse as a child. He also recommended that I write it down, which I did try to do but once it was on paper and I saw it in black in white it made me sick to my stomach and I had to destroy it...So it didn’t work too well for me 
Elisha
Thanks els,
I don't know why but I cant find the words to be able to tell my psychologist these things out loud. It has been so much easier to write them down. When I read back on it though, it feels as if I am reading about someone elses life and not my own. It very wierd. Its as if I still cant admit to myself what happened.
Victoria
cherish all your happy moments....they make a fine cushion for old age
I don't know why but I cant find the words to be able to tell my psychologist these things out loud. It has been so much easier to write them down. When I read back on it though, it feels as if I am reading about someone elses life and not my own. It very wierd. Its as if I still cant admit to myself what happened.
Victoria
cherish all your happy moments....they make a fine cushion for old age
I can understand that, even the memories I have seem like they happened to someone else. When I told my counselor last week the actual details of some of things that had happened to me as a child, (which I didnt expect to do) he did comment that I seemed detached and at one point he asked me to tell him how I felt about my stepfather "charlie"...I couldnt do it. I could say that I thought he was evil and the worst kind of person but as far as venting personal feelings I was void of them and at a loss of words. I dont know if it is because I have kept this locked up for so long or what? I dont know. The abuse has always been apart of me but it seems that within the last few months it has grown and my anger and hatred has grown with it. But I am not sure it is directed toward my abuser so much as it is toward our laws that allow these people to keep praying on children. It is all over the news and I feel that everytime another child is hurt I am revictimized again. My stepfather got a very light punishment for the 9 years of abuse he inflicted upon me, and was able to sexually abuse another child. These kind of things keep replaying in my mind and I have to wonder if there will ever be a day that I will be free from them....