Scared

Feeling a little psychotic this a.m. Hearing and seeing things. Getting less as the hours go on. Dreams were so bad. Wish I had someone to talk to.


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

I"m up hon, Was it just the bad dreams? It's getting better though right?
Thank you both so much. I was so scared. I'm doing much better now. Almost have my head back now.


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

Ellie, it's getting better but it was full blow not dreams last night, if you know what I mean. Oh God!!


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

I'm so sorry. The abilify was helping so much too. Some trigger maybe? I hope you keep feeling better. I'm sure you will. I hate those nights. I don't really see things. JUst smells. Alot of times I think the house is burning down because I smell smoke. Or gas. You never know.
Yes, a trigger, the abilify is still working. Oh man that must be terrible.


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

It could be worse. I spent three days once looking for a misplaced poopy diaper that didn't exist. I could swear I smelled it but it was just me. Gas and smoke isn't so bad compared to that.
I have nightmares too. Sometimes old memories that were long forgotten. Part of what started this whole episode with the bp flaring up. Didn't tell the dr. that when she asked about triggers. Too scary to say out loud.
My prayers are with you all, hope you begin to feel some better today.

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Thank you. Prayers are always welcome here.
 Sorry to hear Sandy. Yeah actually early Saturday morning I was seeing crap again, and hearing stuff. I almost called jay at work and told hi to come home. I thought someone was in the house. Last night just for reassurance he checked our attic, I felt better. We have a big home and it's an old home ( updated , but built a long time ago), and it makes alot of creepy noises. So anyways, I know what you are going through. I didn't have the dreams this time , but have in the past. I dreamed last night that snakes were crawling on me, I hate snakes. Sooooooooooo..... I don't know. For rme I ust tell myself this is normal.LOL I have always had this so , I just learn to deal with it, scarey huh. Also i did not increase my wellbutrin , and am not going too. I do not want to see manic anytime soon. Could you imagine me at school in our OR department, freakin out. Yeah okay! I don't want everytime I am nuts, although one girl knows I have BP, because she told me her boyfriend has it. So we talked a little about it, she said I would of never guessed you were. AHA ... the old try to maintain at school and don't say much...  Anyhow, Sandy my thoughts are with you and I am sending ya big (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))), luv Nick
Thanks Nickie, I needed that hug. Email me if you want to and I'll tell you what I was seeing and hearing last night. Pretty scary stuff.

Love to you,


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

Sandy you take topamax  right? What is your dose again. I know that topamax has something to do with temporal lobe dysfunction. That if you don't have it you shouldn't take topamax, because that's what gives you the stupamax effect. However I think you do have TLD, because if I recall right you smell things that aren't there.... Why I am rambling about this i have no idea. Also email me with the weird dreams, I am so inquisitive( sp?). Not to mention I like to compare my weird dreams with others. Hop you get a good nights rest. Without nightmares of course. Snakes were crawling all over me last night. That's what i dreamed. LOL
I did Jennifer thank you so much. I'm somewhat back to my normal self, what ever that may mean!!! LOL

Sandra


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

Nickie, will email all this a.m.


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs

Hey Jennifer, because I too am prone to bad dreams I used to have a dream catcher. Silly but you know, anything to hold on to, right? Anyway, but I used to believe that instead of catching the bad ones, it stopped the good ones from slipping away. Good idea, I think I'll get another one.

Thank you,

Sandra


BP brings new meaning to Life's Little Ups and Downs