I just wanted to welcome you to the family. You are definitely not alone and I know this is such a scary thing. I think that you need to find a new counselor as this one does not sound very responsible given her profession. You and your partner have been together for a while? Do you feel comfortable inviting him to one of your counseling sessions so he can learn a little more about what you are going through and maybe find ways that he can help you through this.
Its nice to have you here. You will meet a lot of friends here... this place is very special and has been a life saver for me. :)
thanks for your reply. it's nice to know someone is out there listening *hugs* it makes me feel a little better knowing that alone. Yep me and Mark have been together for over 3 years and my depression has always put strain on the relationship, he has been brilliant, considering he had his own worries, being made redundant and getting a divorce and moving out, I tried to support him the best I could and he does the same for me, but at the mo he is worn out with it all, and feels he can;t help me and support me anymore although he really wants to. He has been to my Counselling sessions in the past, I feel 100% comfortable talking about anything while he's there. I think I rely on him a bit too much to help me, as he isn't trained to deal with this sort of thing and I do put it on him a lot and I feel bad about that. I just feel desperate and clingly. I hate it!!!!! I am going to see my GP hopefully tomorrow and I will mention to him that I don't think Linda is being very helpful, she is really nice tho, but she does seem to have me out of the room within 15-20 mins, my last Counsellor left for some unknown reason I only saw him 6 times and he was great, but he went and I waited 9 months on the NHS to get to see Linda, but the GP I have is the head of all the doctors so he has the most clout so to speak.
I am glad I have stumbled across this place as it seems really friendly and nice, hope to make lots of new friends here
hugs
Pix xx
of all the things I have lost I miss my mind the most!
You are not alone. We are here for you. I hope you can get your medication figured out and get your counselling sorted out. Have you tried journalling Krissie? I find this works for me to help get things out. Some other suggestions are exercise, regular sleep/wake patterns and get togethers with friends/loved ones. Just some ideas.
Please post again and let us know how you're doing.
Take care, Softy
This is my first day and my first reply! I came here looking for support and people who understand what I'm going through. It sounds as if you are doing the same thing. I think we all need people who can empathize. So, welcome to both of us. You have lots of shoulders to cry on. Hugs and take care.
Sadsunshine
Hi to sadsunshine and softy,
Nice to hear from you both, glad to meet another newbie :) don't feel like I am stuck out like sore thumb now lolol, I hope to see you about sadsunshine, yeah I do need someone who can empathize insted of someone who has no idea what I am waffling on about lol:) welcome to the site, and I hope we will become friends :)
H there Softy, thanks for your kind words, they mean a lot to me, I was taking regular exercise but have recently broke my knuckle due to hitting a wall, not a very bright thing to do :) so can't go to the gym at the mo, but exercising really helps my self esteem and makes me feel good. I do mean to keep a diary or a journal but I fel topo depressed (if that makes sense lol) I have started (today) to write how I feelm down as I am going to the docs so I need to tell him how I am feeling.
I will continue to post and let you know how I am getting on, thank you both again for your replies
Love and hugs
sadpixie xx
of all the things I have lost I miss my mind the most!
Hi there sadpixie!
I am new here also and as of yesterday reached my breaking point, which is how I wound up here. I have been suffering from depression for a few years no and am on 30mg of paxil but I don't find it does anything. My doctor upped it from 15 to 30 about a month ago but I still haven't noticed a difference.
My ex ended our relationship of 10 years about a month ago and since then it has gotten MUCH worse. Basically she just couldn't deal with me anymore. It hurts REALLY bad because she was my best friend and now I feel like I have no one to talk to. We are still friends but I don't feel as though I can talk to her the way I used to as we are not together.
Over the last 10 years we had been through pretty much everything together. The birth of our nephew and godson, her sister getting ill and passing away from cancer, my cousin killed in a car accident, my brother in laws cocaine and alcohol addiction and so much more which makes it hard for me to understand why she is unable to support me when I am down.
For the last week, I thought I had a plan. I was going to buy another house and get out of my parents basement, but to make a long story short, I was lied to and that fell through yesterday. At this point I just don't know what to do next and am not sure I can handle any disappointment. I just don't know what to do.